Saturday, February 20, 2010

I'm Still Here ...


But - I'm not back. I have many blog entries in draft, but nothing published yet. I haven't had the time to dedicate to my writing like I want to. I really miss blogging/writing because:
(1) - It's what I do, it's who I am. Therefore, I write.
(2) -It's therapeutic for me.
It's as simple as that.

I want to write about my experiences during the Daniel Fast, but the truth is, it's still an ongoing process, and the personal revelation going on in my heart is at times overwhelming for me.

I will share two keywords with you that will be in my next topic, spiritually-speaking:

Hoarding and De-cluttering.

I've been astounded by the things I've discovered in my heart and soul. Examining the storage compartments in the basement of my heart, I found boxes deeply covered in dust and cobwebs, where I had carefully placed things I couldn't bring myself to let go of. Things that I couldn't possibly delete from my life because ... I may want to bring them up some day and make use of them again. But I've been shown that sometimes in order to move forward, you have to make room for that which is new. I've discovered that sometimes the items you've been hoarding in your heart serve only to clutter your soul, which makes it impossible to grow in your spirit.

So, as you can see, it's a process for me. Insight of oneself can be a painful but necessary experience. Right now, my Maker and I are having a Tug of War type of thing going on.
He'll win ... I know He'll win ...
Letting go has proven to be an enormous challenge for me, and I never realized that before.

I'll be back when I feel it's time. Or, rather, when my spirit knows it's time.

3 comments:

Bridgett said...

I miss you...

Warren Baldwin said...

I like your comments about de-cluttering and making room. My computer's hard drive filled completely up. I couldn't record my radio devotionals on it any more. So, I've spend several days cleaning and de-cluttering,and am up to 5% available space! I thought of this while reading your article. Do we cram things in our hearts like this, things that keep us from keeping and savoring something even better? Good thoughts.

Janice said...

Time to gather up your family and get out in that fresh Spring air and have fun and celebrate! Happy Easter to you and your family. I'm still alive and kicking and enjoying Spring. Starting to clean out the garden. Hali and I go to the storytime at the library and Owen comes too when he has the day off of school. And we play soccer and tag football too.
Janice