Saturday, February 20, 2010

I'm Still Here ...


But - I'm not back. I have many blog entries in draft, but nothing published yet. I haven't had the time to dedicate to my writing like I want to. I really miss blogging/writing because:
(1) - It's what I do, it's who I am. Therefore, I write.
(2) -It's therapeutic for me.
It's as simple as that.

I want to write about my experiences during the Daniel Fast, but the truth is, it's still an ongoing process, and the personal revelation going on in my heart is at times overwhelming for me.

I will share two keywords with you that will be in my next topic, spiritually-speaking:

Hoarding and De-cluttering.

I've been astounded by the things I've discovered in my heart and soul. Examining the storage compartments in the basement of my heart, I found boxes deeply covered in dust and cobwebs, where I had carefully placed things I couldn't bring myself to let go of. Things that I couldn't possibly delete from my life because ... I may want to bring them up some day and make use of them again. But I've been shown that sometimes in order to move forward, you have to make room for that which is new. I've discovered that sometimes the items you've been hoarding in your heart serve only to clutter your soul, which makes it impossible to grow in your spirit.

So, as you can see, it's a process for me. Insight of oneself can be a painful but necessary experience. Right now, my Maker and I are having a Tug of War type of thing going on.
He'll win ... I know He'll win ...
Letting go has proven to be an enormous challenge for me, and I never realized that before.

I'll be back when I feel it's time. Or, rather, when my spirit knows it's time.