Happy 16th - You've come a looooong way baby! We love you!
This birthday was a bittersweet milestone.
I'd be lying if I said it didn't just about kill me when I reached for the "Cars" paper plates and napkins for Stephen's birthday party. Right there in the middle of Walmart, it hit me like a ton of bricks and it was all I could do to keep it together.
You never know when or how hard reality is going to hit you. But you don't want it to be in the middle of Walmart. So I took a deep breath, bit my bottom lip and tried not to think about it. Like Scarlet O hara, “I'll worry about that tomorrow. After all, tomorrow IS another day.”
The vision quickly appeared in my mind of how Stephen's sixteenth birthday "should" have been. We should be buying him a "real" car and he should be getting his drivers license.
But, it just wasn't to be.
If you think the above journal entry is bad, you should have read the one I wrote for my private diary.
I'm better today. My sixteen year old is laying here beside me, watching movies, and I feel more blessed than I deserve. The other day, I was seeing the glass half empty. I am partially blaming PMS for that. Today, I am seeing the glass half full.
No. It is over flowing!
As a side-note: I apologize for not having a better birthday photo. This was the best one of the three of us. Believe it or not, the others were even worse. It’s been Christmas/Birthday Palooza around here and we were all feeling it by the time this photo was taken. But, even so, would it have killed me to apply a little makeup and do something with my stringy hair? Sorry guys, you get a glimpse of the “natural” me. Darn men never need to primp. It isn’t fair …
Wishing all of you a Happy & Blessed New Year!