Thursday, June 15, 2006

I Am Still On Planet Earth ...

I tried to post this entry yesterday but my aol browser was not working. It still isn't, but I am posting through Internet Explorer. It's a pain but this motivates me to go computer shopping. By the way, this is my first post to my AOL journal since they've added all the new tools. ... CoooL!  :-)

here goes ~

 Just to prove that I haven't fallen off the face of the earth and to include my AOL-J friends in my latest happenings (however boring my life may be)  - I have decided to finally update my aol journal and my other, non-aol journal. By the way,  If you are not an AOL member and wish to access my non-aol journal, Email me ( and I will send you the link. For some reason, my AOL-J friends are having trouble accessing my other journal and vise versa.  Being the people-pleaser that I am, I am now going to have two journals. It shouldn't be that difficult. Type my entry in MS Word, copy and paste to AOL and other (new) journal, right? Hmm, well, we'll see.

So summer is here and I'll have even less time now to surf the net and update my journal(s) but I am going to try. When I have time, I'm going to buy a new computer because this old one has dealt me fits for too long now and that is another huge reason why I am spending less time online. Since too much time has passed since my last update, it'd take more time than I have for online playing today to catch up. This is what I will do instead - - If you've seen the movie, "Because Of Winn Dixie" you'll get it. It occurred to me that in my three years of online blogging, I really don't get into details about me. So if you're interested:  
- Ten Things About Me -
1. My birthday is July 24th. Next month I am turning 40. Saying that almost makes me hyperventilate.  (oops, that was two things in one)
2. I don't own a house yet, and the thought of not doing so before I'm 40, really depresses me. I have exactly 40 days left to do something about that. :-/
3. (I'm already running out of things to say) Oh! -- I talk to myself too much.
4. I also answer myself. (That's normal, right?)
5. I am still very close to my two best friends from childhood. I've been told that this is rare and very special. I know for sure that they are.
6. I am a true Alabamian. I was born here. I love it here and I never want to move. I've moved out of state twice and I was very homesick both times.  
7. I have Irish and Cherokee blood for sure and I'm uncertain about the rest. I keep saying I'm going to dig deeper into my ancestral roots, but who has time?  It is something I really want to make a priority. 
8. I live in fear most of the time. Of what, I am not sure. I am a creature of habit and anything unfamiliar terrifies me. I was raised to fear (among hundreds of other things) driving and water. Therefore, I hate to drive outside of my city limits and I hate to be in water that is more than waste-deep. I swim like a rock.
9. The above statement makes me feel very angry towards my mom because when I was young and wanted to do those things, she wouldn't let me. She convinced me that I couldn't do them. I've believed her ever since. Isn't it funny how it's easier to believe the negative? Especially when it comes from a parent? I realize that those are her fears, passed down and she thought she was protecting me.
10. Even though I am afraid to drive, I love to travel (as long as someone else is doing the driving) I love the ocean, the lake, and even the pool (the wading pool, that is) I just don't want to get in too deep. Such is life for me. I don't want to get into anything too deep. I guess that would be a fear of intimacy? Commitment? Add those to my long list of fears.
Reading over numbers 8-10, I realize they are all very good reasons to seek therapy.
... I've said too much already and I am sure panic and regret will rush all over me the moment I click the save button.  I should have signed off long ago. My online time is over for today but I am going to get the camera out, and try to get back to my old self, soon. I hope to do some photo-journal stuff again, very soon. I have missed photography and writing. I'm rusty at both. Have a great summer!


my78novata said...

ah glad to hear from you. YES GET YOU A NEW PC GIRL!!!!!!!!!! AND GET ON HERE MORE!!!!!!!!! HA!!!!!!!! IM 44 I got you beat na na boo boooooo UM wait um I dont wanna beat you at that!!!!!!!!! well happy b day in a monht or more

indigosunmoon said...

So glad to hear you are still
inhabiting the planet!  LOL
Love ya!

wfhbear said...

This is the best Journal I've read in weeks. It has been so long since you posted and let us all know you are doing well. Don't sweat 40. It will come and go without event if you keep busy. Mine was so long ago that I don't even remember it. Hope all is well with Stephen and Paul as will as you. Please write more often. Our Best Regards, Libby, Bill, Bruno, and Spirit.