Friday, October 22, 2004

Long Time, No Update

Splitting headache as I type this update. Please pardon any typos. It’s been way too long since I’ve updated. I’m terribly sorry about that, but as everyone who knows me, knows by now … My modem is on the blink. I hauled the whole darned thing to my parents and I got disconnected there too. So it’s gotta be the modem. Right?

Oh, well … enough of that.

What else is new? Been dealing with a lot of fatigue this week. Not sure what is going on there.

Field Trip Hell!

Tuesday was Soccer Blast at “Sports Blast“. An indoor soccer field. You might remember our pictures from last year? Our county has Special Olympics soccer games there every fall. Let me tell you, it was anything but a blast! Stephen decided he was going to be the biggest brat in the world on Tuesday. In a way, I can’t say I blame him. This is how it went: The children all had to stand in line forever, just to kick the ball one time. Who’s big idea was this? Are they kidding? Special needs or not, I don’t know a kid in the world who would be happy about that. In all fairness, his dad and I got there late. I was not feeling well and had to make myself go. Maybe they had a blast before we got there. I couldn’t tell you. I felt sorry for Stephen’s aide as she tried to keep him entertained in line. He would try to break free from her and break in line. At 11:00 they had lunch break so the bigger kids could play, and he pitched a good old-fashioned fit and refused to eat. Not only did he refuse to eat a bite of lunch, he screamed at the top of his lungs till his face was as red as a beet. A fireman friend from our town came up and said, “Is Stephen okay? He’s not injured is he?” “Not yet!” his father replied. Eventually, we had to gather his lunch, escort his little butt out to the car and he finally got his mind off of soccer long enough to catch his breath and eat a little. Finally, it was time for the fun and games to begin again. We went into the building, found his teacher and handed him over to her and said, “Here he is. We’re leaving. See ya later. Bye.”

Ahhhhh, silence was bliss! Stephen’s daddy suggested we eat lunch at Chili’s. I didn’t argue. I ordered a man-sized order of baby back ribs and ate like there was no tomorrow. In fact, I believe I even had barbecue sauce in my eyebrows when I was finished pigging out. [I’m a stress eater. … You can imagine]

How’s that for an update? I just want to set the record straight and possibly disappoint all of you who thought I was a perfect mother who never loses her patience with her child. Let me make it clear; I am not a saint. Actually, I’m just like everyone else. I’ll go so far as to say, most are probably way better than I! I get stressed just like everyone else. I yell at my child. I know a good opportunity to use the school system for a babysitter when I see one! And I did so, this past Tuesday. :P

Fall carnival this weekend at the school. Do we dare go?


my78novata said...

surely the school carnival cant be worse and maybe it will redeem the bad field trip. I want you to let go of this I KNOW with Rachael watching specialneeds children as her job that you moms of special needs kids are way way too over worked and burdend. you need a break and you have got ot have time for your self. MOst people have nO IDEA how badly the time is appreciated that Rachael works for these moms. The other day brandeen had a seizure right before Rachael came and he sleeps mostly. But he can not be alone. So she said she just wanted Racahel to stay and lay with him. She was worn out adn streessed (nothing like watching yoru child thrash around uncontrolably to do that to you) had to do some exercise and cleaning. She just did not feel like she could take a lay down break with him. she needed to do things and did not feel like she could relax. The other lady sometimes just goes and reads a book  or takes a nap. Its really a hard job. Racahel has told how these moms some times "LOOSE" it though I dont think that is a good term for it but they do get angry and loose patience. NO WONDER> now YOU take care ofyour self. I Sure wish Rachael was there to help you you poor thing heres a hug {{{{{{{{RENEE"}}}}}}}

babyshark28 said...

lol, good lord.  sounds like a normal day with my son. :p   Maybe it's the hormones, he is 11...right?  :)
But, in all seriousness, it just didn't go like he wanted it to and in no uncertain terms made it clear that he was not enjoying himself like he usually does.

frustrating I know.

I think you did the right thing, a big ol' plate of baby back ribs from chili's, mmmmm!   silence IS bliss in those circumstances :D

s0ngbird1962 said...

Mia, stinks that your computer is still on the blink.  I haven't a clue what could be wrong, I messed mine up so bad last May, that I couldn't get online for almost 7

Sounds like it was poor planning on the sports blast, because you're right I don't know any kids who would want to wait in a long line to kick a ball.  What were they thinking?  Sorry your day was hell-ish, but the baby back ribs sound wonderful.  LOL, get the sauce out of your eyebrows yet?

Not sure if I express it in my journal, but definitely not a perfect Mom here either... Some days I feel so bad because I feel I yelled too much, or just felt stressed instead of enjoying the moment with them.  

And the Fall Carnival??  I say go and have a great time....  

bridgetteleigh75 said...

Hi Mia ~

I'm sorry you're having computer difficulties.  It sure is a pain, isn't it?  And hun, nobody here thinks you're a saint...we just think you're a wonderful mother who do anything possible to make life better for her gorgeous son.  You're an inspiration to me, that's for sure.  Don't be so hard on yourself.  

As for the computer issues, we'll all still be here.  Don't worry.  Oh!  My baby is due in 3 weeks!  Just thought you might want to know.  LOL  

Love you, Mia..


freeepeace said...

Whew, thanks for clearing that up for me Mia.  I did think you were a saint. :P  Actually, that scene sounds so ridiculous - lines to give the ball one kick?  I remember this event last year - and the pictures.  Sounds completely different this time.  Oh well.  Glad you seized the opportunity to get some relief from being St. Mommy for a while.  That's always important.  Do that more often.  You deserve it.

Sorry to hear about the modem.  Big bummer.  We miss you around here.  But I understand, I suppose.  ::sigh::  Although, I'll admit, it makes it much easier to keep (mostly) current on your journal.  There's just not enough time in a day/week/month/year!  Love you. xoxox

indigosunmoon said...

Oh Mia...bless your stressed out heart!
Big hugs to you luv!

<barbeque sauce on your eyebrows?  LOL>

slowmotionlife said...

LOL  I never know where to find you!!  You really gotta settle on one journal, girly.  :P  I've missed you - good to see you updating here and there, though.  Sorry to hear soccer hasn't been ideal for Stephen.  I can't say I blame him for getting testy either.  It takes a lot of patience to stand there and wait like that.. and so many kids just don't have that sort of attention span.  This makes them cranky.  Can't blame 'em.  The adult organizers should have known better.  Glad to hear you had a good lunch, though.  We eat at Chili's a few times a month - Love it!!  We just discovered Black Eyed Peas too!  New fav restaurant.  LOL  

P.S.  There's no such thing as the perfect mother. That's a myth.  We're only human.  Your love for Stephen is apparent.  Love you!