Saturday, November 8, 2003

Last entry for a while::

Hello friends! I'm sorry to say that this will be my last update for a while. At least until I am feeling better. I've been feeling this episode coming on for the last couple of weeks, but I've been fighting it, hoping it would just go away. I was so happy, because I thought that whatever my health problem is, was going away. I've been feeling better since August.  But, what most of you don't know is, I've been under an immense amount of stress for the last couple of months, and I guess it's catching up with me again. I have these "episodes" when under a great deal of stress and worry. I finally reached the point of shutting down last night while cooking dinner. I haven't eaten very well for the last week, been too nauseous.  Last night, I became very sick while cooking dinner and ... that was that. I'm now having fever again and if this is like the other episodes I've experienced for the last couple of years, I will be having to rest as much as possible. I'm very anemic at this point and very weak. I think it may be as simple as, me having ulcers, but all the tests I've had done, come back normal. So~if the Doctors can't figure it out, what else can I do? I'm beginning to wonder if I'm just going crazy bc they can't find anything wrong. But, I know how I feel, and it scares me. I have to be very healthy, as I am Stephen's primary caregiver, and I have no support system. His dad helps when he isn't busy with other things. If anyone ever needed a nanny, or to be cloned, it's me.  Anyway, just so you all know, don't worry, I'm still here, I'm just very sick right now. Who knows, I could bounce back in a day or so. Whatever this illness is, it's very wicked and I doubt that'll be the case. These episodes usually last a couple of weeks, and I mostly live in my bath robe and do as little as I can get by with. Oh-and Stephen is still sick, so please keep him in your thoughts and prayers. I'll be visiting all of your J's as often as possible and of course the e-mail. If at all possible, I'll add brief updates. Y'all take care!

PS: A thought to ponder....Why is it, when you feel your worst, your children misbebehave the most?

11 comments:

freeepeace said...

"Why is it, when you feel your worst, your children misbebehave the most?"
Maybe it just seems that way b/c you're feeling your worst! ::wink::

Honey, please take really good care of yourself. That's all that matters. I'll always hold you and Stephen in my heart ~ kisses all around! xo

sepintx said...

You take care of yourself and Stephen too!

andreakingme said...

"Why is it, when you feel your worst, your children misbebehave the most?"

Honestly, I think it's because they think they can GET AWAY with more stuff. Either that, or they act out due to fear and anger at your "not feeling good" situation.

Mia, please take care of yourself. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

jslack605 said...

Look after yourself, you'll be in my prayers.

sonensmilinmon said...

Mia,
Take of yourself ... that is the most important. I think I'll be sending you an e-mail, from the sounds of things in this entry you and I have one more thing in common and my dear, you are NOT crazy what you are feeling is real. Get the rest and take care, we will be here when you feel better.
Smilin Mon

aynetal3 said...

Awe, am sorry Mia you are hurtin ... you are right, need to take care of self. Bath robes are good, maybe you could treat yourself to nice new fuzzy slippers too? Don't stay away too long ... we'll be missin you! Our prayers go out to all of you. Our love Corey

slowmotionlife said...

Ohhhhh nooooo... My Mia is sick?! No more entries? The world of AOL-J is going to be infinitely dimmer now... ::pout:: I'm so sorry to hear you're not feeling well again, Mia. I really do wish I lived closer now so I could help out with dinners and come sit with you and Stephen, to cheer you up. And I don't think it's that the kids really misbehave more when you're sick.. I think it just seems worse because you don't feel good! Take care of yourself. Luv ya bunches!

aims814 said...

Thanks everyone for all of the thoughts and prayers. I'm just taking a little break, that's all. I'll be back when my health allows. I woke to a mailbox full of very sweet wishes and all of these nice comments thank you all. And I think all of the comments about behavior in children are right. It does bother me most when I'm sick, and yes, he does tend to act out a little more, maybe as a way to communicate. Not really sure why. But yes, I agree, it does irritate me more.

raisinglouisiana said...

I'm sorry you're not feeling well. I do
hope you're back to feeling better soon.
Hugs and well wishes!
Love ya, Penny

babyshark28 said...

I'm sorry too. I will be thinking about your wonderful little family and saying a prayer. I will be missing your entries and pictures of Stephen. :(

babyshark28 said...

:sigh: